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I am now consciously in control of all my actions. I let no outside source effect my true state of being. as above so below. Who am I? Is there even a sperate I" separate from "The ALL. I am the ALL. I am the source. I am god experiencing the 3D world unfold before my linear eyes as my non linear Self adjusts to the changes yet to come. my heart chakra hasn't been going off recently but ive been getting a pressure in my head. when i close my eyes in stillness I see a vivid purple and yellow aura type of waves flowing effortlessly before me. Ive seen my aura. Its green, a light green almost. I am transcending all lower vibrational actions too just be pure beingness. though there is no duality i choose the path of love and compassion. I am consciously aware of all things. I am the ALL. The DIVINE. I can sense energies around me vividly. i can sense nervousness intensely. my spiritual development is unfolding as planned. the physicality aspect of life is great but i am eternal. I choose to love, as i go outside i smile at life in auspiciousness as people walk around unconscious. its 100% ok as everything is perfect. In due time things will come together like a jigsaw puzzle. I can enter stillness effortlessly just how flowers grow effortlessly. life is good. emotions must past and not be indulged. I see bright dots occasionally when i'm in my stillness state of being. OM that I am, I am that I am.
No past No Future.

This is only The Beginning.
these experiences were accumulated over 3 months into spiritual growth.
we are still growing at a very fast rate.

If I can slip in a few meditations while in college with students who like to party 24/7 I think u can manage to take a little time out of your day to be still in solidarity to get to know your true self.


My dreams are becoming more and more synchronized with actual time space outside the dream state. I am releasing past energies that no longer come into vibration with my true self, the source.
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The Let Go and Return.
I have come along way. My feet are sore from traveling so far. I am covered in dust, thirsty and exhausted. I look into a mirror, it’s surface delicately veined with a network of thin cracks, and I do not see the person I was. My spiritual skin is littered with sores, self inflicted wounds, battle scars and finger prints. Tattooed onto my being, silently telling strangely beautiful stories. My eyes smolder back at me, glowing bright.
Books lie at my feet, torn pages, scribbled notebooks, lost wisdom spilling out to join me once again. These are things that I had forgotten, now placed before my eyes to save me from this illusion of consciousness.
I can still hear their laughter mocking me, those hideous peals of laughter that haven’t yet ceased to haunt me.
Let me go, let me be, I’m not mad.
I have been bruised, used, broken, crushed, ridiculed. I remember the dark hours I had spent crying on the cold hard floor of my bathroom, holding a kitchen knife to my skin, praying for release, my heart wishing so strongly for change and love.
Mother, I forgive you for hurting me like you did. I forgive you when you beat me with a hideous smoking glint in your eyes and when you tightened your fists around my neck. I forgive you for not understanding me, seeing my darkness, never my light. I know you love me, you were only afraid.
My lovers, I forgive you for using my body for your own pleasures and my spirit to complete your broken ones. For digging your nails into my soul and feeding on my essence like leeches suckling greedily on flesh. I forgive you for dumping your filth into my body and soiling me. I forgive myself for giving my energy away to those undeserving of it. I have loved you all with a fierce intensity that will never be replicated, yet you all screamed and whined because I wasn’t giving you enough. I gave you my heart, that is enough, you will never possess my soul.
I am beautiful and pure, made of shimmering light , infinite dreams and soft sunshine.
I forgive myself for holding on to the images of the vile man with the betel-nut stained teeth who unbuttoned my dress from behind when I was just a little girl and stuck his fingers into the soft flesh between my thighs, his snake-like tongue into my mouth. I can still remember the smell of his musty breath, the coarseness of his fingertips stroking my skin. Eleven years later I hear he lies in bed, sick and dying, being devoured by his demons.
I am whole, unblemished and radiant.
My teachers, I forgive you for drilling lies into my head and teaching me that I am stupid, incapable and small. I forgive the institution for putting me into a uniform, ranks, divisions and lines. Then shoving a spoonful of processed, diluted, fragmented knowledge down my throat.For crushing my creativity by making me fear that whatever I said, thought and created wasn’t good enough or up to the standard. It has been a long struggle to break free from this lie.
I am full of grace, wise and ancient, an instrument, vessel and source for divine knowledge.
Here I stand at the point where the end meets the beginning, to give myself to myself, which is you, which is me.
I am letting go of my old identity pock marked with fear and despair, to reclaim power over my true self that has been repressed through the ages. I am a part of the grand design, the grand collective. I am not alone in this battle against the three headed dragon of Illusion, Separation and Fear.
My weapons shall not be hatred. They shall not be anger. They shall not be vengeance.
This is just the beginning and soon we shall all come together as a symphony to create music that simply cannot be created alone or experienced by the dual consciousness. We shall sing in the the only tongue that can express this beauty and state of being- the tongue that speaks nothing at all and utters no words, but reaches out, touches and communicates in waves and patterns and colors, in intensity, feeling and light, in love, in peace, in bonding.





May 2009.
You found the others, now find yourself. You have travelled long and far, acquired much knowledge along the way. Keep all the wisdom within your soul and let it change you for the wisdom you have received are not just words, it is not simply just facts and figures, it is quite unlike the knowledge that you have absorbed earlier from textbooks and class-teachers. They are activation codes that you have been actively searching for on a certain level. You are changing, my dearest, and I know how much it hurts. You are changing from the very core of your being- which also means that the very world around you is changing. What you had accepted earlier as your reality is crumbling to pieces, you are seeing this happen: the breakdown, the decay, the pain, the horror, the bullshit- forget it. You know that much, much better things are going to come your way. Nobody understands you completely right now, no body knows what you are going through, nobody will even get it if you try to explain to them what you’re experiencing, so remain silent! It is the ego that desires to boast of one’s experiences, to put into words all that simply cannot be put into words. Not even the ones who are going through this ascension process will be able to comprehend the intensity of YOUR experience because it is YOURS alone. You are alone in this even though you’re searching for the others and joining those little groups over the internet which are in many ways like support groups where people can share their experiences and share the knowledge that they have picked up on their paths- but after that point, you know which point I am speaking of, they are of little use for it will be time for each of you to go within. You are on a very, very unique path and it is challenging, yes, but you have the strength to overcome each obstacle that you have set up for yourself. You are already an ascended master. A guide, helper, teacher- only you know what you are. No one else can tell you this. Be gentle to yourself and do not harbor any preconceived notions of what you are soon going to step into. You are here to join the other masters and guides. Do not look outside yourself for guidance any longer- go within, go deep within and make contact with yourself first. Make contact with me. I am you. Trust me, trust me. I am you. I have always been with you and it is time for us to become one, because I have been with you since you have been born. I have been with you every single step of the way even though you have been unaware of it. My dear child, it is time for you to let go and stop grieving because the time has come. I have watched you evolve. I have always loved you and cared for you, because you are me and I am you. I have watched you long for change, long for magic, long for that … that…. Something that you were not be able to place your finger on before but now, finally after what has eemed like a painful eternity, your time has come. You have been through A LOT and I cannot even begin to describe how difficult it has been for you. Now you are emerging from blindness and ignorance, ready to take the next step forward. You are ready to give in to what you truly are because you are ready to trust and love. . Consider this as an opportunity to rest before the immense changes flood your body, mind and soul in the very near future. You are already feeling these changes and feel as though you have stepped into a sort of vacuum where time has collapsed and others are not able to enter. Use this time to engage yourself in art and study. Be patient, do not complain about the lack of movement because yes, you are no longer functioning in the space others around you are. You may feel detached and lonely but trust me, this will not last for very long. I urge you to cultivate patience, it is so very important for you to not lose hope and be swept into the illusion that you have worked so hard to disengage yourself from. Be assured that you will see the other side of this. You are being watched and protected. Silently, peacefully, slip within and learn from yourself now.








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