Hey Everyone, I guess I can use this space to say a little about my experiences that have brought me here to EA. Sort of a short little re cap of the scene of events that took place to me finding EA and a little touch on my incarnation, nothing detail because that would take books worth lol.
So I guess it all started when I was young, I can rememeber at the age of 7 thinking to myself "How do I know this world isnt a dream like when I am asleep?" I never understood what this world was or if it was real, and sometimes I would get my dreams mixed up with the awakened state. Well, as I got older things were well, in the sense of "life" at that time and age. I was always having "fun" with friends, lots of girls, played a lot of sports, and got into the usual trouble but it was fun. Little did I know, that fun would turn into a 2 1/2 year lesson that would change a lot in my life. At the age of 15, I was caught driving a stolen car and was arrested. This was not a big deal to me at the time and I actually did not care at all, so I kept on the same path and im sure you all know where that is headed. Inevitably bringing more drama and hard lessons learned. Isnt it funny how it takes the hard way to actually learn something? Well, things ended up getting "worse" and slapping me around harder until I woke up and used the experience for what it was meant to be, showing me what I am not, which at the time I had no clue thats what I was doing. To make a long story short on this part, I ended up going to Juvenile Hall a couple times and spiralling down to "rock bottom".
This all eventually changed and shifted my life, my views on it, and beliefs in such a huge way, that I believe I would not be here today if it wasnt for those 2 1/2 years. Eventually, everything I once cared for or was doing started falling away and slowly losing interest in it after all this happened. It was like the first step in the awakening process, but the very very minor one, before the "oh ****! this is where I have been headed the whole time son!!" (I threw the son in there for effects lol) which comes awhile down the road after you look back and put everything together.
So to bring this up to more present time, for about the past year and a half, I was researching conspiracy theories and UFO cover ups sporatically. At times I would get really into it and start telling friends and family, but of course everyone would look at me like im crazy, and then go back to watching there beloved TV. Anyway, the conspiracy theories have always been something I believed because I never felt that everything in the world was right. Society has never seemed like the "right" way to live and all the division in the world, including our history, never seemed like the way "We" are suppose to be. So that right there gave me the reason why conspiracy theories were so interesting to me, it gave me the sense of "See everything isnt as it seems or the way it should be".
On top of that going on, I have always been very spiritual, very, even since I was real young. While searching conspiracys for truth and even before, I always had the sense that our truth lies with in the spiritual realm. So, I ended up searching organized religion for answers to why things were the way they are, will it change, what are we here for, and etc. I was a christian for a long time and was raised in it, not die hard, but casual christian family, we didnt go to church. I for awhile was more into it then family members were, but that all quickly changed when I opened my eyes to see how much ego plays apart in religion and how much division is caused by it. I soon started feeling very limited in my thinking, very limited in life, and thats when I realized the truths and answers I am looking for does not lie within one religion. Nor does it lie outside of me.
Now to bring this to this year. Everything hit a full fledged stop in Januarary 2009, I mean everything. After one of the craziest days in my life, I believe, I was left with a question that I never asked myself on a deep level. What is the purpose to life? and What is my purpose in life? These questions haunted me for weeks and months as I diligently searched everything and everywhere for the answers. Then one day, after all the researching, I was led to the New Age Movement, Unified field theories, and the Law of One series. I was instantly hooked!Something clicked, something kept telling me "Your on the right path, keep going, dont stop here". So I did each day searching and finding, slowly putting things together. Then one day, out of pure curiousty(synchronocity) I stumbled upon Tamids videos, at first I will not lie, I thought he was some kid who was just speaking out of his ass, but that was very prejudgemental of me, which I would soon come to realize. After watching the "new age egos failure to be enlightened" (i think thats what its called) everything he said started resonating with me. I started feeling something that I could not describe, but it lead me to watch more of his videos. With each video, my amazement grew deeper, answers were slowly starting to come together. Then, I clicked on the EA link on one of his videos, and..........
The greatest feeling of joy, shock, love, bliss, happiness, relief, everything put into one just shot over me. It was like in those movies where you hear that sound "ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" and the light comes out of the sky like heaven or whatever. Truely a beautiful and awakening moment, the thought "WOW, this is everything I have been searching for, everything that I couldnt make sense of, this is everything I somehow knew in my heart to be true, and look! here it is!!" Like everything I knew but somehow forgot, and seeing this was like a sense of De ja vu almost.
Well, After finding EA, life has been great. I dont think I need to say another word about this path that we are all on, for all of you already know. All I can say is, that after putting my "knowing" together now, not "belief", I look back and say " You had me for a second! Not no more! HAHAHAHA!!" Though, there is still much to be gained and a lot to let go, I am finally truely happy. With each moment and each lesson, taking each in stride knowing that I am that I am and each experience is a test and a lesson to be learned, I can say the journey is well worth it. Now the focus is no longer on the outside, it is now inwards on growth each day, and soon I hopefully will find my way to be of service to all my other selves and the great one infinite creator. In time.
Thank you all for reading my short, yet long, story of coming to EA. I love you all dearly and appreciate each and everyone of you, for if it wasnt for you this part of I would not be here.
Written Early April 2009
Om Bhur Bhuvah Suvaha Tat Savitur Veranyam
Bhargo Devasya Dhimahi Dhiyo Yo Nah Prachodayat
"The Ego is not the collection of thoughts itself but is instead your identification, your attachment to these thoughts as the experience of who you beileve yourself to be" - Lincoln
"The nature of things around you is as you think it to be. Your life is what you make it by your thoughts. Thoughts are the bricks by which you have built the building of your personality. Thought determines destiny. The world around you is the reflex of your thoughts.
You are affected by things only in accordance with your idea about them. The mind sees value only in that in which it has intense faith. Though all of you see the same object, everyone of you attach to it different values. According to your mental propensities you think.
The world around you is only what you believe it to be. Your perception is coloured by your thoughts. Your mind perceives and continues to perceive things in that very form in which it imagines to be with full faith. Pierce through the steel-armour of biased thoughts, and try to see divinity in every object." - Sri Swami Sivananda
"You are awareness. Awareness is another name for you. Since you are awareness there is no need to attain or cultivate it. All you have to do is give up being aware of other things, that is of the not-self. If one gives up being aware of them, then pure awareness alone remains, and that is the self." - Sri Ramana Maharshi
"The ignorance is identical with the " I - Thought ". Find its source and it will vanish. Then the self alone will shine as it always has, in the stillness of being." - Sri Ramana Maharshi
"That which permeates all, which nothing transcends and which, like the universal space around us, fills eveyrthing completely from within and without, that Supreme Non-Dual Brahman. That Thou Art" - Sankaracharya
"If those who lead you say to you, 'See, the kingdom is in the sky,' then the birds will precede you. If they say to you, 'It is in the sea,' then the fish will precede you. Rather, the kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you. When you come to know yourselves, then you will become known, and you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living father. But if you will not know yourselves, you will dwell in poverty and it is you who are that poverty." - Jesus
"Realize that it is the desire of your heart to know your Self. Not the desires of the mind. You need not be concerned with the minds desires. Honor the heart above all else." - Lincoln
"How shall I grasp it?....Do not grasp it. That which remains when there is no more grasping is the Self." - Panchadasi
"Do you know what it means to learn? When you are truely learning, you are learning throughout your life and there is no one special teacher to learn from. Then everything teaches you - a dead leaf, a bird in flight, a smell, a tear, the rich and the poor, those who are crying, the smile of a women, the haughtiness of a man. You learn from everything, therefore there is no guide, no philospher, no guru. Life itself is your teacher and you are in a state of constant learning." - J. Krishnamurti
"On the destruction of a jar, the space therein unites with all space. In myself and Shiva I see no difference when the mind is purified" - Avadhuta Gita Chp.1-31
"Yamoaka Tesshu, as a young student of Zen, visited one master after another. He called upon Dokuon of Shokoku.
Desiring to show his attainment, he said: "The mind, Buddha, and sentient beings do not exist. The true nature of phenomena is emptiness. There is no reailzation, no delusion, no sage, no mediocrity. There is no giving an nothing to be received."
Dokuon, who was smoking quietly, said nothing. Suddenly he whacked Yamaoka with his bamboo pipe. This made the youth quite angry.
"If nothing exists" inquired Dokuon, "then where did this anger come from?"
Dualities an trinities on something do hang Supportless they never appear That support searched for, they loosen an fall. There is the truth. Who sees that never wavers. - Sri Ramana Maharshi
"The foolish reject what they see, not what they think; The wise reject what they think, not what they see." - Huang Po
"As in the sky covered with clouds no eye can see the glorious sun, one fails to see one's on Self when the mind firmament is darkened by the dense clouds of thoughts."
"I am nobody an nothing. I am only like a mirror in which you can see yourself." -Babaji
"Hand over your existance to Existance itself, and be quiet" -Mooji
Anguli Mala wore a necklace of 999 human finger bones - one from each of the people he had killed. Everybody has aspirations; Anguli Malas was to add the thousandth bone to his prized collection. This was his single minded desire.
One day Anguli Mala was walking down a jungle path, he spied a yellow-robed mendicant walking slowly alone. Another finger bone! thought Anguli Mala as he hurried forward with murder on his mind. But when he reached his intended victim and gazed into the Buddhas peaceful shining countenance, he was unable to complete his plan of action.
"Who are you?" Anguli Mala asked. "Why do you shine like that and what is it about you that immediately calms and pacifies my blazing inner fires?"
The Buddha replied, "I have calmed my own inner fires."
Anguli Mala was so awed that he knelt down and confessed, "I was coming to kill you, a saint, but now the bonfire raging inside has gone out. Why?"
"This," the Buddha told Anguli Mala, "is the effect of inner peace, enlightenment, nirvana."
Namaste! <-> I AM <->
"The state of Self-Realisation, as we call it, is not attaining something new or reaching some goal which is far away, but simply being that which you always are and which you always have been. All that is needed is that you give up your realisation of the not-true as true"
Sri Ramana Maharshi
I intend in this moment, to call forth the fullness of my LOVE. The love within me, the LOVE that surrounds me, the LOVE that animates me. I call forth that LOVE to express through every cell, every atom, every breath, every thought, every feeling. For I am an embodiement of pure LOVE.
I love my physical body because: It is the temple
I love my mind because: It provides the catalyst to Self Realize and all is mind
I love my spirituality because: I AM THAT I AM
I AM ONE with you because: We are pure consciousness that just is
Who am I?
Here are 3 pictures of my beautiful meditation spot at the marina in San Leandro, Nor Cal. Simply beautiful. Dont you think?
After hearing about the Buddha's incredible abillity of self-control, a man once tested the Buddha for miles while walking village to village. Following the Buddha, he harrassed him, said nasty things about him, trying everything in his power to make the Buddha angry.
Then the Buddha stopped and asked the man a question, he asked "If one decides to reject a gift, then to whom does the gift belong?"
The man replied "To the person giving the gift."
The Buddha smiled "Correct."
"So if I choose not to accept your anger , does it then still not belong to you?"
Jaden, Having just read your page and story it fills me with joy. I have recently woken and followed similar life path , albeit in another Country, culture and climate ... but same rules,tools and fools. Thanks and love ...Namaste ... if you ever come to London look me up !
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